1.single, taken or crushing?
crushing? single? i can't decide/

2.are you happy with your life now?
not really. some things are just waay screwed up.

3.when you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
can love ever be explained?

4.have you ever had your heart broken?
yep.

5.do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
no way.

6.would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
i'd really have to love him tons.

7.have you ever talk about marriage with another before?
hmm. yep. right hiew (:

8.do you want children?
ohmygosh YES i love kids.

9.how many?
2 or 3.

10.would u consider adoption?
sure why not?

11.if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
just tell me? don't beat around the bush man.

12.do you enjoy getting into relationship?
haha maybe.

13.be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
lol.

14.do you believe in love first sight?
love cannot be explained. ai qing shi bu ke yi jie shi de.

15. Are you romantic?
haha i have no idea.

16. Do you believe you can change someone?
if i love him, i'd love him for who and what he is. (:

17. if you could married somewhere, where would it be?
somewhere quiet and romantic.

18.do you easily give in when you are fighting?
depends?

19.do you have feelings for someone right now?
yea

20.have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
yes. definitely.

21.have you ever broken a heart?
don't know.

22. if one day your best friend fall in love with the girl/boy you deeply in love with, what would you do?
take things as they come.

23.are you missing someone now?
yes. horribly.

okay thankyou everyone for the birthday wishes and i love you all back! yay so i guess my birthday ends soon. going to sleep now, and i have a fantastic morning of training to look forward to tmr. (: byebye!

okay what's been happening these few days? for starters i didn't really feel as happy as i thought i would be when the exams ended on the 20th. i thought there'd be this huge wave of euphoria gushing over me once physics was over, but i only felt this faint happiness. like okay its over, what now?

yea went to vivo to watch world trade center. i'll just say this. its the only movie that ever made me cry(i seem to be crying a lot nowadays), but whether its good or not, i leave the decision up to you. i liked it anyway. its one of the most disturbing movies ever, and it really tugs at your heartstrings. though i obviously wouldn't understand the things the families that lost their kin were going through, but the portrayal of the movie made it real ehough, moved us so much that there were sobs throughout the cinema. you can imagine.

vivo.. vivo did not ever strike me as being the largest shopping mall in singapore, for the simple reason that its just too ordinary. its just another shopping mall. yeah i know its got singapore's only gap, and the largest such and such shop, but is it really worth getting excited over? vivo gets too much hype, and people expect waay too much from it. are we really that deprived? god people. its just another shopping mall. singapore's too small. all we have are malls and malls and malls. you'd think people never got tired of shopping. shopping is not free please.

oh what else. yes sakae buffet yesterday with brackethiew, sal and see <3. its the most sushi i've ever eaten in my life. we just sat there for 2 hours eating sushi. and talking of course. we miss each other so much :] i love you guys and i don't know what i'd do without you. <33

ah yes mylife has been boring, i admit. but hanging out with friends does tend to lose its appeal after a while. i'm not one person who needs to be around people all the time.

goong is yea nice, as every other blog is SCREAMING. mmm yea i'm not gonna say anymore. go watch it yourslef. its yea just another cliched soap opera, but isn't it nice to have something funny and brainless to take your mind off things? yea if anything its got cute guys, and i guess they both deserve this. shin, yul. <3

oh quote of the day.
rachelyeo after training:did you know one in three people are retarded?
me (looking at rachel goh):yeah, look, three of us, one retarded one (points to yeo) lol horrendously funny. yeo you like jack yourself like that every single day.

i thought i had something else to talk about but i guess i've forgotten. pretty dumb even for me huh. ciao.

please tell me its not all in my head.
(but i know it is):

kopped from khoonnie's blog lol. eh i'm taking a break from bio/ss okay! ):

EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRSTS

first real bestfriend:
like one that i could really talk to? sec one.

first school:
holy grace kindergarten <3

first cellphone:
nokia 3310

first funeral:
dad.

first pet:
two terrapins bought by zhen's dad haha.

first big trip:
seattle in p2? loved that trip.

first fight:
i think i punched jon in the stomach ><

first celeb crush:
hmm that's like now. wang shaowei! yay.

first time out of the country:
eh i was in my mum's womb. does that count. LONDON.

first job:
clearing my toys? lol

first myspace friend:
NOT APPLICABLE.

AND THEIR LASTS

last person you hugged:
debbie.

last car ride:
at 930 this morning.

last time you cried:
last week.

last movie you watched:
scary movie 4. again. (what i was bored!) KHOONNIE PRONCESS HOURS IS SO NOT A MOVIE. its like a damn long movie. .-.

last food you ate:
applesss.

last item bought:
top from topshop.

last shirt worn:
yellow sea age06 shirt.

last phonecall:
mum.

last text msg:
hiew (:

last thing you touched:
the keys on the keyboard.

last time you were at the mall:
oh like light years ago. i'm deprived. i know.

last time you were excited abt something:
er today. VIVOCITY SAKAE BUFFET KUNMING WOOTS.

last person you saw:
jon i think.

last thing you drank:
100 plus.

last person who broke your heart:
its okay he doesn't know but he's still breaking it.

last time you were honestly happy:
i think i was like p3.

you know what. i'm doing chem and i still cannotcannotcannot remember anyfreakingthing. someone tell me why i took chem in the first place cos i know i'm so regretting it now. ): and you know another what? i think i'm like in the wrong school. i feel stupid in rg. and okay so i am stupid, but then like i feel horrendously retarded when i see everyone getting ohmygod perfect grades and i'm getting ohmygodwth grades. so yes you see the discrepancy?

chem pt BETTER pull my grades up cos its like 35% as compared to the paper which is ike 25%, so i'm calculating that if lets say i fail the paper miserably, which i know i will, and then do alright for the pt, i will at least pass this sem's chem. adding on to my 3.6 for chem last sem, i should get at least a 3.2 don't you think? hmm maybe i'm being too kind to myself here, but hey things are always worth hoping for yes.

oh. chinese paper today was KILLER. like worse than a rabid dog that bites you repeatedly and drags you all around the backyard. yes i thought it would be okay, but then the first written comprehension was so short, and they ask you stuff like "why do you think the author said this" and i was thinking, how the hell would i know why the author wrote that? its his business, not mine, and its not as if i want to know anyway. so yeah for that whole compre i just crapped out lame answers so i guess i'm like totally going to fail that part. ): omgomgomg someone throw my grades a liferaft so that we won't go under. ><

SUGAR WE'RE GOING DOWN. (dissolving in chem terms RARRS)

typing fast is like playing the piano! cept the screen is kinda bright. and piano keys make more pleasant sounds yes they do.

okay i am like dying doing chem and like why am i even bothering. sorry if i sound a bit crazed [according to (hiew)] and kinda incoherent. >< byebye off to stare at the book and not get anything into my head. wish me luck and hope that i don't fail chem this sem! byebye.

THREE MORE DAYS OF HELL
AND 5 MORE PAPERS FROM THAT SAME PLACE.

when that little bit of heaven
falls to dust.

what's wrong with me. i actaully went training today. i'm like supposed to be studying, but then i go training, and now i'm here blogging. and you know what else? i actually cried about training today. like what's my problem. crying about training is not cool. hmm okay but i was swimming slower than the small kids. i was like the slowest in the squad, and i'm not exaggerating. plus my heart rate was like 180. omg i suck please. ):

the dreaded exams are coming. i'm not so worried about much of the stuff, cept BIO PHYSICS AND CHEM omg does anyone want to give me chem tuition? i'm gonna totally flunk chem. does anyone want to stick a pump into my head and pump all the stuff in! ><

i shall attempt to swrite bio essay now. byebye <3

its really good to hear your voice say my name
it sounds so sweet.

let me tell you what happens when a taxi crashes into an sbs bus (: the side of the taxi gets smashed in and the bus with its passengers is virtually untouched. highly amusing, i know, but also highly traumatic. so this is what happened on sat morning after lit remedial. we (yanhan kexin wenyu etc) were on 190 heading towards orchard mrt, when suddenly the bus just STOPPED and alot of people almost fell down. (yes i was one of them) the most amusing thing was that we didn't know what had happened, cos like the bus didn't seem to have anything wrong, but then we decided that we'd better get down, and then we realised that the taxi's door had been smashed in and it was kinda lopsided so one tire was squashed. mm quite cool la. but hope no one got hurt. :x

okay and then sunday, OPEN WATER SWIM (: quite fun yay. i learnt one thing: never swim behind the guys for the start or you get a lot of water in your mouth and have to kick doubly hard to go as fast >< ah but it was fun. apart from the fact that i got two huge mouthsful of seawater and got oil spots on my costumes ): hmm but it was a good experience. remind me never to swim in singapore seas again though. you can't even see the person swimming next to you please. o.0 oh and kenneth got stung by a jellyfish (during the warmup no less) so he had to swim the race with a hell painful sting oops. i didn't too badly considering. came in fourth. ^^

ohyes we watched dead poets' society today. the ending was realy tragic ): poor neil. yea sometimes i wonder why parents are so extreme. yeah i know its for your child's future, but then if they really don't want to do it you really cannot forceforce like that. if not they'll just commit suicide like neil did.(though of course not by shooting themselves cos we're not allowed to own guns in singapore, just like 92369426584 other things we cannot do HUH)mmm thinking about it though, i think shooting yourself through the head is the fastest way to commit suicide, except that i cannot get a gun. sad ): GO WATCH DEAD POETS' SOCIETY!

and we got er eng marks back. not very satisfied with my marks, but i guess they're okay. should average a 3.6 for eng. .-.

okay i reallyreally should SCOOT now cos i have to plan my philo esaay that i am going to flunk. i'm planning to flunk HAHAH. okay byebye then.

if i lie here
if i just lie here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world.

the air smells burnt. and i don't like it. everytime i breathe in i get this musky nostrilful of air, and i'm really tempted to go bathe again just to get that stupid smoky smell off my body. >< rarrs i hate being smelly. i don't like slashing and burning. spare a thought for others, even if not for yourself la. >:(

hmm nothing much going on now except that the dreaded exams are coming. >< shate i want to die already cos i have this darkdark ominous feeling (this foreshadows something!) sorry too much lit already. as i was saying, i have this darkdark ominous feeling that i'm going to fail like majority of the subjects and like totally ruin my holidays. rarrs i'm such a failure. seriously. ><

lit remedial tmr i don't feel like going bleah.

guess i'll go to sleep now.


and i start right back at one.

dammit.

rarrs say hello to the next two weeks of intensive mugging and byebye to whatever freedom i had in the first place. ah well its for fourteen days anyway. after that there's one week of total annihilating stress, and we'll be FREE. for the next 2 minths or so.>< school life sucks.

so what else has been happening these few days? nah nothing much i guess. I LOST MY RED ADIDAS BOTTLE shate! i loved that bottle so much ): and now the completely red ones are out, which means my model has been phased out so i can't get another one! yes that sucks completely ): grar anyone who saw a hotred adidas waterbottle at queensland trials at the sport school last sat can you please tell me! ><

sigh can you please talk to me and not always dao me cos that makes me really sad. i know you don't know, nor do you really care much, but every little thing that you do really makes me smile. i think of you and i smile for goodness sake.

okay i guess life will be pretty much mundane and routine these few days, but after exams HIEW you owe me sal and see a treat yay!

sharonsiow: class, ever thought why you can drink from a straw?
310: cos you suck! (whole class erupts in laughter :D)

funnyy.

yes byebye.