okay if you've been wondering who that guy in the obituaries section who had four full coloured pages yesterday (and i think 7 or 8 pages today), i'll tell you. he's my granduncle. and i tell you i'm gonna miss him so much. his death came as such a shock to us, although he'd been on-off sick for the past week or so, but then when i was at msian open, the news came from hongkong that he'd passed away. ): i don't care how rich he was, don't care whether he was the chairman of 3 public listed companies, the largest exporter of cod, whatever. he was my uncle and i loved him. but now he's gone. ): i'll miss you. <3

oh well that's the way life goes huh. everyone goes the same way, be you the richest person in the world, or the lowest meanest beggar. and no one can take anything along when you go. so why not just enjoy life as it is now and try not to worry unecessarily. you never know when you're going to go, so cherish everything and everyone beside you. tell them you love them, every single day. what's the point of loving someone if you just keep it in your heart? you have to show them that you love them, be it a little note, a hug, a smile, anything. i know this sounds cliched, but its true.

does this post sound sad? yea i'm quite. and hiew told suzy to tell me that she crushed me cos that would make me laugh. thanks hiew, cos i did laugh, though not at suzy, but at your silliness and thoughtfullness. i know i haven't always been the best friend, but hey, thanks for always sticking by me no matter what happens. and thanks for just listening when i'm sad, and when i feel like complaining, and of course, for never failing to brighten my day up with that SUNSHINE smile of yours. you can make me smile no matter what, and at this point in time, i don't think anyone else can do that for me. i don't think i've told you how much i really love you so i shall do it now. I LOVE YOU SERENE HIEW BESTIE BOO. <33

so long then.

to do:

1. complete physics pt by tmr
2.complete ss pt by wed.
3. study mathchibiochemphyslitss GRAR everything
4. try to train harder and not lag behind
5. try not to die.
6. forget (:

ah workworkwork. its the last leg anyhow. go gan go.

hurh lazy to blog about msian open already. i'll just say that the food everyday was fantastic and the hotel's food sucked. i'll let the pictures do the talking for once.

okat on to qld trials yesterday. mm actually all i was going to say was that they were a complete waste of time cos i didn't do any good times and i didn't qualify (duh) so i really don't know what i went for in the first place. grar. wasted one afternoon of time and energy. what could be worse. shouldn't have signed up in the first place -.- next time i'm not going unless i have a realistic chance of qualifying.

ah speaking of realistic chances. i bet everyone must have thought ssc swimmers were a BIG JOKE yesterday cos we went and swam so freaking many events and none of us were even close to making the times. (with the exception of kang, yang and kenneth i guess) lol like go there and swim, think you're very pro isit. i was actually laughing when i saw the small kids there. i mean hello get over yourself already! i know you think you're really fast, but since you don't really think very well anyway then i guess you're not fast. so why in the world would you want to go to trials like these and humiliate yourself? (i did too, for that matter. what with my swimming 200 back and 50 free and 800 free. even my fly swims were a joke) omg i can't stand small kids nowadays. you know what we're cultivating?

a generation of selfish, self-absorbed idiots who don't know and don't care for anyone else other than themselves. its all me me me me me! you know what i mean? slap them all lah.

a generation of idiots. i like that one (: oops that means i'm one too. ah well i don't deny that.

[/edit] okay pics are up already! WHEE. go
here!



okay so.. back from penang! shucks i didn't really want to come back. msian open was actually quite a lot more fun than i thought it would be so YAY.

kinda supposed to be doing work now, so i'll blog about it some other time. like tmr i guess. pics will be up by.. next week. x)

okay times.

50 fly.
heats: 31.18
finals: 30.43

100 fly
heats: 1.09.03
finals: 1.06.90 :D

50 back
finals: 32.70

100 back (this one is totally embarassing)
heats: 1.13.85
finals: 1.12.6sth

50 free
heats: 29 sth

so as you can see overall not very satisfactory times at all, except for 50 and 100 fly. pb for 100 fly YAY. wasn't even expecting to do a 1.08. ah well so its okay considering i didn't train for this at all. (:

better detailed update soon, i promise. (:

omg i'm so dead for pts. i've only done the research and they're not even phrased in a way that i like so ohman i'm dead. i have no idea how to design them so i'm gonna get zilch for design, and my photoshop skills suck so yup SOMEONE SAVE ME. :]

msian open meeting today. the attire they gave is.. ah no other word for it then, SAD. four identical tshirts, exactly the same as the ones we got for asian swim champs, and four pairs of weirdddd shorts. ah but we're staying in service apartments with (according to them) nice big living rooms and kitchenettes and "tasteful furniture" (quote unquote) so okay whatever. this had better be fun, i'm wasting ONE WEEK of school for this. and when i come back, i shall sleep at 3am every night doing pts. (which at last count was still stagnant at THREE. FUGG) hoyes i shall make a halfhearted last ditch attempt to do somemore tmr with the little time i shall have, and draw out designs at msian open. (though i know the chances of my being able to reproduce them in photoshop are ZERO.) ah well, this is the life, no?

grar okay i guess i'd better scoot now and try to figure out somemore photoshop-chem-everything else swimming round in my head making me dizzy.

and this life would be NOTHING without you.

byebye. :]

leaving for msian open on tues i think. and for once i'm not really looking forward to an overseas competition. i dunno why. maybe its the lack of preparation, but its most likely due to the fact that its so close to exams, and i really do need the revision time, yet this is also an opportunity that i cannot pass up (or at least SHE won't let me pass up), so i am in a way being forced to go. but i guess its not so bad, cos i know it should be quite fun and even though i'm going to totally embarrass myself its going to be okay.

everything's going to be okay.. right?

ohno i cannot believe how behind i am in everything. i don't get graphs, nor linear law, nor have i truly started working hard in anything else including both the pts, whose due dates are slowly drawing closer and closer. TRANSLATION: I AM SO SCREWED SO LORD HELP ME.

dang i feel so lost. lost in my embarrassment? maybe, but more like simply lost in this whorl of emotion, this wave of dumbness that i inevitably get swept up in over and over again, spinning round and round as if i were in a topload spin washing machine, getting bashed over and over again, but never learning from past mistakes. TRANSLATION: MY LIFE IS SO F*UCKED UP I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO :]

perhaps presenting a mask to the world is the best way after all. i wear my heart on my sleeve, and how's that helped me any? maybe, just maybe, hiding behind that happy, ever happy facade is the best way to go about things. never let them see your vulnerable side, always having an impenetrable set of defences 348754572935metres highhighhigh above you. could it be, that this is the only way to survive the battery of the world?

possibly.

(yet here i am pouring my feelings onto an empty piece of canvas for the world to revel in. some facade.)

oh, this excruciatingly exquisite pain.
its addictive as cocaine.

this is what happens when you're bored with everything else at home.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
-> oh shit i've got eyebags.

2. When is the next time you will have sex?
->was this quiz made by some despo person or what!

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
->oh i know i know! FLOOR.

4. Favorite planet?
->pluto. but its goingoinggone.

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
->some overseas number o.0

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
->i could get used to this - the veronicas

7. What kinda shirt you have on?
-> team spore shirt from asian champs.

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
-> adidas (rocks)

10. Bright or Dark Room?
->dimmish

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
->waay to skinny and tall and chio. ><

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
->the one nearest to me.

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
->thinking. about stuff.

14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
->no. i cant la. bloody irritating cos i can't swim anymore. so i was like wtf la.

15. wheres ur letter box
->@gmail.com!

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
-> er

17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
->:D

18. Last furry thing you touched?
-> that sounds bad.

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
-> oh er marijuana and coke and ice. i'm a hardcore druggie!

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
->have you never heard of digicams!

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
- dunno

22. Your worst enemy?
-> myself

23. What is your current desktop picture?
-> oh natday dancers

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
->for what.

if u had to choose between a million dollars and flying which would u choose?
->FLYING. duh

26. Do you like someone?
-> yea (:

27. The last song you listened to?
-> zai yi bian - 183

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
->no way.

29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
->her.

30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
-> my right foot. o.0

Stabbing time!!!! i stab...you you you you and you!! TRANSLATION:
-> anybody who wants to do. :)

heard about the croc hunter's death last night though i didn't actually watch the news clip on the 930 news.

i really never thought this would happen to him cos he seemed so invincible, doing all those things that many of us only dared to dream of, yet, his life was snatched away from him in that instant.

it really makes you question this life doesn't it? the fragility of life is scarily real and that this life could be snatched away from you at any moment, perhaps even now, makes you want to treasure it even more and live life to the fullest. i feel sorry for the guy (though i have to admit i thought he was really stupid to play with his life like that), and not just him, cos he's already dead anyhow, but for his wife and two chidren that he left behind as a result of his moment of folly.

i've watched his shows a number of times, and i felt he was really cool, but now, i see that perhaps it was no more than man's vanity and ego that lead him to perform stunts like those. why couldn't he just have lived a normal life like the rest of us? i'll tell you why. cos danger sells. people want danger, you have the ability to "stage" danger, so you give them danger.

silly, really.

okay i finally found time to blog, though its not as if i've been doing alot of work so i really dunno why i haven't had the time. probably due to the amount of time i've devoted to youtube-ing stuff and getting the new lcd screen done and tested. yes you've read correctly, we've got a new 17-inch lcd screen for the comp and its super cool. x)

okay so back in time to the 31st of august.

had piano exam in the morning and i have absolutely no illusions about how it went. congratulate me on my failure in advance. in kaiyan's words, the examiner must have thought i'd never done aural before in my life cos he was giving me this "wth have you been doing with your life!" face.

i've been looking around at the people i know though, and i've come to realise that MOST (note, i say MOST) people who are arty are not very sporty and vice versa. i suppose its only that handful of people who are really good at everything. guess everything in life has its trade-offs huh?

ahh and then fast-forward to class outing! it had been raining the whole day so i was really worried the barbecue would be a failure and i was going "please don't rain please don't rain PLEASE don't rain!" the whole day. and funnily enough the rain actually did hold off until after the outing so that was good. i think we should have more of these kinda outing thingos cos i have a feeling that trying to get the fire going and keeping everythinhg burning really helped bond our class. i have to admit that it was the best fun i'd had in a long time. 310 is simply <33.

mhmm yeah loaded with peetees this hols. so much for no holiday homework huh. >< at least there's msain open to take my mind off things for a while, but then i'm going to have to mug like crazy when i get back cos missing one week of school is totally not a joke at all. :|

okay back to physics pt. :D (no i take that smilie back.)