Seven things that scare me
1. failure
2. rejection
3. losing all the people i love so much
4. chem
5. er jellyfish?
6. getting fat
7. becoming dumber than i already am

Seven things I like the most about myself
1. my eyes
2. the ability to sleep with my eyes open x)
3. my small bones
4. my randomness
5. being the lamest freak ever
6. loving and being loved in return.
7. i don't really like myself much.

Seven most important things in my room
1. My bed. duh.
2. my clothes
3. my desk with all my letters shoved somewhere
4. my stuffed toys!
5. the aircon
6. the radio
7. the window.

Seven random facts about me
1. i'm random.
2. i can sleep with my eyes open yes i can.
3. i sink instead of swimming
4. i just ate a whole bar of chocolate
5. i like my phone
6. i like you
7. my neck is itchy

Seven things I would like to do before I die
1.marry someone i truly love and who loves me back
2.travel around the world with that person
3.have a house in every sngle continent
4. go on a month long yacht cruise
5. have a huge stupendous kitchen to cook and bake
6. eat whatever i want every single day
7. go bungee jumping

Seven things I can do
1. get really really pissed off at myself
2. sleep with my eyes open yes i'm immensely proud of this.
3. sink when everyone else swims
4. eat like a total pig
5. read for one whole day nonstop
6. bake
7. twitch my ears

Seven things I can't do
1. be someone i'm not
2. like fake people
3. swim
4. study
5. make you like me
6. surf
7. dance

Seven things I say the most
1. er
2. sh*t
3. crap
4. wth/wtf
5. lol
6. walao
7. whatever

Seven most favourite celebrities
1. wang shaowei
2. keanu reeves
3. johnny depp
4. adam sandler
5. i
6. don't
7. know

Seven people I would like to see do this
1. ems
2. sam
3. peck
4. rach yeo
5. rach goh
6. yao
7. anyone else.

don't ask me why i'm doing random quizzes. i should be doing work.

[DISCLAIMER: the following entry consists of the writer's personal thoughts only. NO OFFENCE IS MEANT so if you take offence, then its your stupid problem.]

don't you think singapore is becoming a decadent society? i'll give you a few examples and you can decide for yourselves. ("decadence" according to the oxford advanced learner's dictionary: decadence (derogatory): (a state or behaviour that shows) a fall to a lower level in morals, art, literature etc especially after a period at a high level)[okay so maybe not arts and stuff, but in other things such as behaviour.]

what i'm going to write seriously reminds me of an argumentative essay/exposition. oh well, good practice for the exposition test on monday i guess.

firstly, have you noticed how every person of the same gender looks the same nowadays? if you were to look at girls on the mrt for example, you'd find that she's got her own personal style, but then you realise that every other girl there has the exact same style! what a miraculous coincidence! (okay i admit i do dress like that sometimes too, but its more for convenience and comfort than anything else.)

secondly, do you notice how our manners have deteriorated? again, i shall give you an mrt example. i was on the mrt just now on the way home, and there was this couple with two children, about 4 and 5 years. the father was playing with the girl, who was emitting shrill shrieks that had the whole car looking at them, yet the adoring father was seemingly oblivious to the irritated faces of the passengers. he must have been thinking "hah i bet everyone is staring us us cos my girl is so cute! yay look at the fun we're having!" -.- moron.

another thing. people just walki straight into you nowadays, and when they bump into you, they either just walk right on like blocks of wood (though blocks of wood can't exactly walk.), or they tsk at you as if its your fault for bumping into them when you were actually trying to avoid bumping into them in the first place. like hello, it was your fault in the first place, and if you don't possess what i like to call spatial awareness, then its your loss, not mine. i have recently taken to walking straight at poeple to see if they will avoid me. it becomes a battle of wills of sorts, but then to clarify, i only do this occassionaly. i know its rude, but hey! i'm singaporean, remember? :D

and now, i know the question revolving in your head is "WHY are we like this?" i'll tell you even if you're not wondering.

just one example since i have to go soon.

many teachers in schools simply ignore students who give them any kind of problems. they immediately condem these children instead of explaining matters to them so they will not do it again. i mean, what are teachers for if not to shape the future owners of singapore right?

and i can't thini anymore and i have to practice on the piano soi apologise for the lack of elaboration, but i assume you've got the idea.

someone save us! sugar we're going down!

i feel so good.

on a random note,

You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

i'm neither smart nor a neat freak, but i got bert as hiew predicted so. yup. i quite like bert anyway.

yay byebye.

having physics in the comp lab now and most of the class is doing illegal stuff. hahaha this is so amusing. ah well physics in the complab is usually something interactive so whatever.

i thought of a poem yesterday while showering but by the time i got out of the shower and tried to write it down i only remembered about six lines. pathetic, i know. i'll go work on it and see if i feel like putting it in my blog. :D

yknow siow is going round and round in circles when she should just get straight to the point. she's making things more complicated for herself and everyone else. (and i'm a poet and i don't know it. nah kidding.) and i think if she spoke better she might be able to make herself better understood cos currently i don't get anything, i'm just trying to understand her english.>< her lessons are kinda ambiguous. she confuses everyone with her english, then when someone asks a question to clarify, she tries to explain but ends up confusing herself too. like wth. o.0

haiya i've got nothing to say at the moment. i can't think properly unless i'm at a home comp, so ciao for now.

i am becoming a serial blogger. don't ask me why. hrmph i'm supposed to be memorising my englishoral speech, but i know that when tmr comes i'd just have forgotten everything, so there's not point in trying to get it done today. i'd actually memorised it alr, but i went for math tuition, came back, and realised that i'd forgotten the whole bloody speech. the one i spent one hour writing and two and a half hours committing to memory. ><

Oh not because happiness exists,
that too-hasty profit snatched from approaching loss.

But because truly being here is so much; because everything here
apparently needs us, this fleeting world, which in some strange way
keeps calling to us. Us, the most fleeting of all.

...Ah but what can we take along
into that other realm? not the art of looking,
which is learned so slowly, and nothing that happened here. Nothing.
The sufferings, then. And, above all, the heaviness,
and the long experience of love,-- just what is wholly
unsayable.

the time traveller's wife is a good book. go read it! ^^

and in some strange way, i felt that connection, just for that one instant. fleetingly.

I have been tagged (!) thanks alot ems. o.0

1.Do the following WITHOUT complaints
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

Current Mood: sleeeeeeeepy. yeah it like 12 am and i have to train tmr. duhh
Current Taste: er water?
Current Clothes: shorts and op blouse that we bough at asean cup 05.
Current Desktop: er nat day dancers group pic.
Toenail Colour: toenails are transparent.
Curent Time: 11.56 pm and i'm blogging while waiting for my speech to print><
Current Surroundings: at the computer table with the wall to my right and the piano to my left. and misc syuff everywhere else.
Current Annoyances: having to train and that i have eng oral and that i didn't get speech day and. the list goes on.
First Best Friends: er. p1-sec 1 friend cheryl that i've lost touch with.
First Crush: not telling.
First Movie: how'd i know. i was probably er. OKAY I DON'T KNOW.
First Lie: dunno la.
First Music: er.
Last Crush: not telling either.
Last Movie: LAKE HOUSE.
Last Phone Call: my mum to tell her i was coming back from tuition.
Last song played: yi ba san/183
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: yeah does going on a date with ser count?
Have you ever broken the law: probably
Have you ever been arrested: nah
Have you ever skinny-dipped: definitely not
Have you ever been on TV: dnt think so.
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: er does truth or dare count.
5 things you are wearing: specs, shorts, shirt, watch, er skin.
4 things you did today: went for piano, wrote eng speech, went for tuition, ate dinner. my life is totally exciting.
3 things you can hear right now: my typing, my music and the fan blowing really loudly.
1 thing u do when you're bored: stone, play piano,er read.

okay done. thats not very imformative. now i'll tag..
rach yeo rach goh yanhan vinna hiew.

yup better go sleep now i've wasted enough time on this. trng tmr and hardly anyone's going. damn.

i never though i'd say this again but its starting again.

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singapore idol is warped. i knew it was a stupid show, but not as stupid as this. fine i know i might get flamed for saying this but i'm gonna say it anyway. i wanted jasmine to be out cos she's so act cute and she can't sing, but then she's always freaking safe.i thought since all the pro singers (mathilda jonathan hady) were in one group, that group would be safe, but NOOO. we just HAD to vote for the other group which can't sing right. only nurul in that group is decent, and no i do not think joakim is cute so yes he should be out too.

i mean HELLO mathilda obviously can sing and deserves that place so much more than the other *ahemlousysingersahem*. dudes its a talent contest not a "omg he/she's so cute/chio i'm so gonna vote for him'her even though they so totally can't sing!" contest. singaporeans are warped i tell you. i mean look at american idol, even if you're not good looking, you can still win cos you have a killer voice! look at people like reuben! i mean come on. that guy can sing!

okay its not that i'm saying any of them are really good this year, but if you ask me top three should rightfully have been mathilda jonathan hady! they're the best singers what. garn i really hate this. sg idol pisses me off, but fine its faintly amusing and there's nothing else to watch on wed/thurs nights so i watch it anyway.

but singaporeans close your eyes and open your ears and listen to the SINGER not look at the LOOKER! wthhhhh.

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chinese pt presentation didn't go as well as it should have. i'm really pissed with the computer seeing that everyone else's music played nicely, but ours simply could not play. one and a half dialogues didn't play, one whole vid didn't play, and the music stopped halfway. does the com have something against us or did it just take that entire 15 mins that we were presenting to warmup? whatever the case i think the school should seriously consider getting new comps. like seriously.

i'm in a really big dilemma at the moment. should i go for the taiwan trip or should i go kunming and train? cos i'm pretty sure if i were to go for the taiwan trip i'd have hardly any time to train and that would mean saying goodbye to my nag results next year. if i were to go kunming or stay in singapore, then i'd probably be missing out on a really enriching experience and a totally fantastic holiday. grar howhowhow.

annotating lotf is stressful. they shouldn't be forcing us to annotate the book, cos as long as you know what's going on and can produce decent results i think its fine if you don't annotate what. boo.

isn't like like that? one second that lasts just that little bit too long to be a second, one beautiful moment that you bask in, only to have it swept away from you in the blink of an eye, that moment that is just a little too short to be a second. its was all good, once, but not now, maybe not ever again. aand poof! its all over.

yeah i'd really like to be back to those days, but that's just wishfool thinking. can something just go right for me, just once more in my life? feeling a touch melancholy right now, and i think i was exceptionally quiet today, cos i was just thinking. yknow getting mixed feelings and emotions sorted out.. basically didn't feel like talking to anyone. i get days like that.

sometimes its good just to be
alone.

chinese peetee presentation tmr! i bet its gonna be good. :D(VINNA its gonna be good! the ppt is super nice!)

hmm. had to do a poem for ss on mon entitled "who i am". every sentence had to start with "i am", which i thought was quite silly at first, but i ended up having fun haha. so here it is.

I am your typical student but
I am not content to fit into any single social stereotype.
I am not who you think i am,
I am not who you want me to be.
I am hardly anything i want to be, yet
I am who i am, and no one else can decide who
I am for me.
I am just another face in the crowd striving for perfection, but
I am FAR from perfect.
I am Katrina.
I am me.

i know its not very well written, but it was what i felt like writing at the time so there.

ohno two weeks of training with her. grar i'll try not to hate it. huh its not as if she cares about us anyway. she only pretends to, but not very well. its so DUH that she likes the smaller *ahemcompetitivesquadahem* people. though they're noisier and more irritating than us. like hello they talk more than us. yet we're the ones that get scolding. if they're so great then just go train them la.

okay back to ss pt now. i don't even know how to present the info and design the booklet yet. i'm gonna get freaking low for design la please. wish me luck, i'm gonna need it.

its about not wanting to!
this is who i am
and this is what i like.

grar i have ONE day to rush indiv chinese pt. looks like im gonna have to complete it in the evening cos vinna's coming over afternoon to do the filming and stuff. it's really rushed and all but i'm sure we can do it. vinna get well before you come over tmr can!

jaan if you still read our blogs. you know i've only been back to training for 2 weeks and i'm getting tired of the incessant swimming up and down the pool. i hate feeling tired and being slower than everyone when i'm already trying my darn best.i know i should be motivated to train harder to catch up with everyone, but then i just don't have the energy or the willpower to do it. i know you want me to go for sea games trials and hopefully get in and stuff, and thanks for believing in me, but at the rate i'm going i don't think i'll make it in the next 48654934 years. i know you believe i can and all, but then as i said, the rate i'm going, i definitely won't make it for next year. hell i can't even sprint a 50 free without dying by the 35m mark. i'll still try, but i'll say sorry in advance cos i most likely won't get in. we'll see by next year anyway.

training today killed me anyways. three main sets i was like WTH! only made the descending set(which was NOT a main set omg) and the cruise, after which i simply DIED. arms and legs felt like jelly and bleah. couldn't even make two 50s of fly without breaking stroke. aspiring flyer somemore. >< eck howhowhow. my back is like dying already, my free is/was never there, my fly used to be okay, now i can't even do a 32 for a sprint. grar. i'm gonna have to train like crap to make sea games and that's not what i feel like doing at the moment. my body belies my good intentions.

ah yes mum was looking at sofas just now at the furniture fair at the expo. pretty nice set but firstly the price is kinda on the high side and secondly the material would be too warm even for a place that gets the sea breeze all the time so i guess the answer to that set is no. though its the only set that we've actually taken a liking to for awhile. ahwell, better things to come i suppose. :]

yea i'll go watch vids of my favourite guy now BYEBYE! (and procrastinate until tmr which is when i really start doing chinese peetee properly :x)

and you don't have to be alone,
cos i'll be one better
yeah.

natday dance was totally cool! mygod i never realised how much i love our class before.
ok firstly a big THANKYOU and ILOVEYOU to everyone who helped us/cheered for us! first there's SIM and DEBBIE and YVONNE who came down earlyearly in the morning and helped us with our hair and makeup and whatnot! thanks for getting your hands dirty so that all of us could look fabulous! :D KRISTIN who helped some with makeup and hair as well, and RACHAODA who made up half of our fanclub and for helping us with av stuff and stayed back during auds etc to watch and support us! ZESLENE for her GO 310! cards! as well as the rest of my darling class who cheered for us! love you guys!

ok so we got second, but i don't really mind cos we all had fun out there and seeing everyone cheering and enjoying our dance as much as us made all the practices and panicking worth it. i'd definitely jump at the chance to do it again if i could! gonna miss the dance. :x yay litying vinna yanhan sunchao simjoo kaiyan yingyan! <33

natday photos still in my cam. i promise to upload them asap.

i feel like just going to play at msian open cos i really can't train hard. ):

thought of the day:
does sleeping with contacts harm your eyes apart from drying them? cos its like you're looking at your eyelids, which means that you're actually looking at something that's waay too close considering contacts help you see far. (since i'm short sighted) so doesn't that mean sleeping with your contacts means you're squinting at your eyelids all the time. so that would make my vision deteriorate right? or do my eyes just go off focus and like totally don't see anything? there's a thought.

ohyeah and happy 41st singapore!

the singapore idol cameraman(men) are so dumb its amusing. they're almost always showing the wrong face everytime the host says a name. for example. if gurmit says joakim, the camera would be on / be moved to show er lets say paul's face. its so lame. it just shows that the host and the cameramen don't have any form of communication or order in which they want to announce the names right. suggestion to the organisers! tell your host that he should announce the names in a certain order and MAKE SURE that the cameramen knows the order so that he can anticipate and zoom into the right person's face. dots.

ah training this morning was surprisingly good though i died after the first set of cruise. hey its not bad considering i haven't trained for two weeks and i've been slacking around what with techmonth and all. ohno i'm so dead for msian open. its in a month and my training is still at ground -92486485762. shateshateshate.

yes back to training. this is the first time i've trained hard in like a year i think. seriously, go ask any ssc person and they'll tell you i'm like the biggest slacker in the entire swimming body. so yup today was quite an achievement for me. hopefully my swimming will get back on track for next year. >< i really need to start training or else everyone is gonna ZOOOOM past me. many of them already are cos they train so bloody hard compared to me. ohnonono.

GOOD LUCK 310 DANCE PEOPLE! WE'LL PUT UP THE BEST DANCE EVER AND MAKE SURE EVERYONE GOES WILD WITH EXCITEMENT OK! ILOVEYOUGUYS!

ohyes. one more thing. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIM! ONE YEAR OLDER ONE YEAR LESS MORONIC OK! <3

and god must have spent
a little more time on you.