well, here i am again. i'm really tired of 2007, and its barely begun. grar. oh well, who am i to complain, there are so many more people who are doing so much more than i am, so i guess if they can do it, then i have to too. :D

training has been.. well, on off okay i guess. i guess i've been training better lately, so that's kinda given my confidence a boost, but then again, i'm not so sure. i feel like i should improve, and i think i'm doing okay, but then i look atother people and i realise i drop further behind everyday. its not because i'm not willing to train hard. maybe its because i'm just not there anymore. everything i want to achieve is slowly but surely slipping out of my grasp, and i'm really not confident of doing anything anymore. its as if i've got nothing anymore. nothing to be proud of. no one to be proud of me. its sad, i know. but you don't have to pity me. i've probably caused all this myself. (:

just to love,
and be loved in return.
(is it that hard?)